I’m trying something new here, something I feel the Lord is telling me. I just wish he would just tell me plainly what to do. I hear people say the Lord told me this and that, did he really or is it something they feel the Lord telling them? I don’t hear a small still voice or a voice of thunder or anything, just wind blowing.
I read his word and I pray for wisdom and understanding. The Holy Spirit does his job of bringing the word to mind when needed, but I don’t hear a voice. I’ve said at one time God told me this or that, but I didn’t hear God say anything. I just felt that’s what God was saying. But if God is talking wouldn’t that be considered scripture? Confused? Yes, I am. Scripture is were we get our understanding of God.
Do we hear God’s voice? or is it just something we feel?
This is so hard. Because at anytime we can be like I feel God telling me to make a video or write a book or buy a new house or… and is that God or is it just us, us hoping that it’s God telling us to do something we want to do?
I want to write. I feel God telling me to write. Is it God? His word doesn’t say do what you want, no it actually says the opposite, deny yourself and pick up your cross daily.
This life as a Christian is hard. It’s hard because you want to follow everything Christ tells you. It’s hard because when you try to follow everything you’ve been taught to follow you struggle with something. That something you’re struggling with is misunderstanding. Yes, we misunderstand some of the scripture we are taught, or we are taught it wrong.
God wants what’s best for us, because he loves us. When you love someone you want what is best for them. To not want that for them is not to love at all. Understand that correctly. To love is wanting the good for the other. Don’t get the wrong idea here, we are to love everyone as we love ourselves. We what what is good for ourselves, we need to want that for other people too.
I starting writing this because I wanted to show up. I want to help others understand Christ. I starting writing because I need that help too. I want help understanding Christ as well. I need people to show up and be there, not only for me but for those who don’t have someone there. Show up for someone today.
There is so much I want to say and yet I keep holding back. I guess I’m afraid of saying the wrong thing. Something I may not be able to correct fast enough… I don’t know. I do want to say something, though, to teach something. To show something. But I want to be led by Christ. I can’t share the word of Christ if I’m not doing anything. I can’t sit on my couch watching Netflix all day.
I have to do something.
I’m going crazy!
I noticed I haven’t written on my blog for over a month. Why? Well, there is no good excuse. Time does fly though. You see I was sick at the end of October. I was out of work for a week and still feel the effects of that sickness today. When I say time flies, I mean I feel like it was last week when I was sick. Last week when I posted to the blog. I’m starting to think that God turned time up a bit. Where has it gone?
Well, I’m going to show up a bit more, hopefully everyday. I have to show up because I have something to say. God loves you! He sent his son to die for us. He gave up his son. Who can do that for someone else?